What were you like as a child and do you think your childhood is connected to your MI?

Well my story... (maybe triggers)
There's a few threads about childhood stories that are really making me think. Like I may even bring this up with my T. Well when I was a kid I was uhm "not normal". I was twisted. I was obsessed with sex and death at a age that kids shouldn't even know about these things. I wouldn't watch cartoons, I would watch health channels for the surgeries. At night I would flip on the porn channel and try and see some boob between the lines and blur lol. If I wasn't doing that I was watching true crime stuff just to see a dead body. Like those ones on really late at night where they really show them. I would sneak out of my bed to watch death and porn on tv. Maybe not so funny. I was probably only 6. I would put on my moms bras and stuff them and walk around. Then after my mother passed, my father moved his pregnant gf into my moms home with us. That's when I started scratching my body up. I'd claw my face and arms and teachers were always pulling me aside. I was put in counseling at school. At a parent teacher conference, the counselor came in and almost physically attacked my dad for putting us kids through hell. I was a angry angry child after my mom passed. Or should I say, my dad moved his gf in.

Now I wonder... am I so messed up because of my childhood or would I of ended up here anyway? Who effing knows. I'm going to ask my T.

Am I the only one who was twisted at a young age???!!