So T and I were talking about this last session and I can't quite figure out why it is so important that she likes me. I know it is fairly normal to want people to like you but I feel like this is going a bit beyond that. I've been thinking about it a lot and I still can't figure out why I am so obsessed with seeking T's approval and getting her to like me.

The only thing I can really come up with is that this could be something to do with the fact that I tend to view T as an idealised mother figure. I often feel like my own mother doesn't understand me and that I/my feelings are "wrong" somehow. Maybe I think if T likes me and approves of me then my feelings (and me in general) will be seen as okay? I don't know if that makes sense - it is very hard to explain.