The thing is, I think he feels the connection... but I don't. Like last week I was going through all that little kid stuff in session... and then he said that he was right there with me, connected and all that... and I told him that I felt like I was going through it by myself... not because he wasn't experiencing it with me... because he definitely was... but because sometimes in session I get completely locked up within myself... and I want to be able to feel like I'm letting him in... like I am acknowledging that he is experiencing something with me, not just next to me... I see him right there, all empathetic... but for some reason I perceive him as experiencing all this stuff in a way that is parallel to me, rather than with me in an interconnected-type of way. I think it is just so hard for me to feel truly connected to someone. I am so used to feeling different from others, feeling removed.