To start off with I missed my appointment with my therapist today and had some things to talk about (missed bc my ride didn't show and I can't drive) but anyway.... I was watching Ghost Rider with my boyfriend on the couch and there was this one scene where there's some violence and I all of a sudden couldn't watch it, felt freaked out, got away from it and everything else that I could (including my meds and knives) I don't know what it was just started shaking and crying. I was diagnosed with chronic trauma syndrome whatever that means I don't know anymore I think it's more specific than ptsd. I remember hitting noises when I was real little my parents waking up to them screaming and yelling I was maybe 5ish but I'm wondering if my mom was right if my dad really hit her like she says... believe me both my parents have their issues but that's beside the point... I wondering if I have repressed memories and something like that triggered it? I realize there's probably not an easy or cut and dry answer but is it considered a flashback if u have this physical/emotional or whatever type of reaction without a memory to put it with? Could someone define for me what a flashback is anyway? But I think I believe my mom because I have a very vivid memory of it my mom crying and telling me and my twin sister to get away from the door incase he came barging in, and she told us he ripped the phone off the wall and stuff... i also remember when a police officer came and made my dad leave; that's something I'd like to forget being scared and crying and just not understanding.
Thanks for listening.
Feedback would be great
Danielle