EV, I think maybe the anger that you direct at yourself is anger that you haven't dealt with from things that happened to you in your past. I'm guessing since you are dissociative and a cutter that you probably have experienced some abuse. I know that with me, I haven't been able to feel any self-protective anger in response to that. So my T explains that all the anger gets turned inward and that is part of why I cut myself. I give myself the blame for all the bad things.

Do you think maybe that could be partly true for you, too?