I am feeling really anxious right now and if I wasn't wanting to stop the behavior, I would be googling T right at this minute. I guess doing so does alleviate my anxiety but then once it has passed I am left feeling ashamed, self-loathing and angry with myself for the obsession. I'm struggling to find something else that's more constructive than obsessing over T when anxious. The urge to google isn't usually short-lived. It typically lasts for hours, even days. Googling seems to pacify me in one way but then adds in other distressing emotions.