I can relate. I keep trying to move forward and anxiety, avoidance and perfectionism keep dragging me back down.

Do you have trouble setting boundaries? Maybe you are afraid of conflict and criticism and you are trying too hard to be agreeable.

Can you think of something that makes you angry? or if not, then just something that makes you sad? Something you don't want to lose, or something you regret having lost? Sadness and anger tend to tell us what is important to us. Maybe focusing on whatever that is in your case could help.