Hey. I know what it feels like to be addicted to something... It's a terrible but somehow wonderful feeling... You feel guilty doing whatever your addicted too but your happy (sort of) the moment you do it and in your case excited. It provides you with releaf to everything. But later you get sad and mad that you do it and sometimes you dont give a damn about anything or anyone because at the moment you dont care what happens to you. At least thats what its like for me. (Though im addicted to something else.)
OK so this is what you need to know. Being addicted to something can be a state of mind. It's what you chose to believe. And if you truly and deeply want to get better you will It will take awhile and it will be HARD. And even though you may not be ready right now I definitely think you should make the attempt of giving up your addiction. It's way better than letting it take control in your life.
Now of course you can go to rehab for drugs that are mentally addictive. Because for me mental pain is hurting me more than an physical pain I ever felt (so far anyways). Now to find help online just type your problem in Google. There should be many sites that could help some... If you want you can also try calling 1-800-744-0789. Where you'll be able to talk to someone and find recovery programs. Also feel free to PM me anytime if you want
Since you have money on hand. If you have a parent, a good friend, or someone you really trust maybe you could give it to them? Lol. I was just thinking you could tell them the reason and they'll help you from spending it on drugs. Buuut it will probably be better to put it in the bank especially if you have alot of money in your pocket Maybe everynow and then reward yourself! Go buy a candy bar, go out to the movies, your favorite restaurant, or I don't know something meant for YOU and that YOU want. (But don't spend it on drugs, please?)
Whenever you get the urge I found the best way is to talk to someone. Being on PC is good too. But the people here are sadly not IN your life. I can ask you to stop drugs and give advice, but of course I can't and would never force you too. But if you don't have contact with someone you trust maybe, listen to music, watch a good movie, play video games, maybe even do some chores or yard work (lol). But do something that you want to do (and get drugs out of your head!)
Remember it's OK if you slip up. Because we all mess up sometimes. Just motivate yourself to try again, alright?
Lastly, if YOU don't want to stop, remember that I WANT YOU TOO

So can you try for me?