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Old Oct 02, 2016, 08:43 PM
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Location: Western US
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I was kinda messed up as a child. Around the age of ten I became obsessed with murder, death, blood, and other fun topics. It coincided with my first bout of (undiagnosed) depression. I drew pictures that disturbed my teachers but not my parents, who were more concerned about appearances than anything else. I was also a very angry child who had few outlets for that anger, so I think that contributed to my problems as much as being harshly treated by my mother. I had "up" periods when everything was great, but I also was highly irritable and flew into rages at any provocation.

Looking back, I'm pretty sure I've been bipolar for most, if not all, of my life. I didn't find out for sure until I was 53. That was at least 43 years of confusion and unhappiness that might have been fixable, if not curable. Sometimes it makes me angry that I suffered unnecessarily because my parents would not get me mental health care.
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DX: Bipolar 1
Anxiety
Tardive dyskinesia
Mild cognitive impairment

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Celexa 20 mg
Gabapentin 1200 mg
Geodon 40 mg AM, 60 mg PM
Klonopin 0.5 mg PRN
Lamictal 500 mg
Levothyroxine 125 mcg (rx'd for depression)
Trazodone 150 mg
Zyprexa 7.5 mg

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