Welcome to PC. Its a great place to be with people that understand what you are going through. Good advice and sometimes just an ear when you need it from someone that can relate.

Lamictal is a drug that you have to go up on slowly. A lot of people here are on it and most wind up using 200mg to 400 mg. Give it a chance to build up and hopefully you will find it a good mood stabilizer as many of us have. For me it has been a great drug and I really notice the difference on it, it has helped me a lot.

Take it slow, and try to post, I am sorry you are not in the best place right now, but remember a lot of people here do all right with therapy and maybe the right drug combo. Both take time.

Really just wanted to welcome you, we are all here for you.