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Old Nov 29, 2004, 10:53 AM
Genevieve Genevieve is offline
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Aha! So you're getting what sounds like appropriate and intensive treatment, which is good, but still struggling. Gee, I haven't ever heard of any such thing...

Yeah, right!

Here's the question I'd ask you, if I were trying to challenge you to get past this plateau: What are you afraid of feeling? What is the ED shielding you from? That's what it is for me, a way to focus attention away from whatever is really bothering me. Usually what's really bugging me has something to do with fears of inadequacy, and those can be very frightening to address head on. So, I starve myself and get numb and obsess over my fat belly and my appearance.

It's only when I really get away from the ED that I can focus on other things, and obsess about other things. When I'm in the ED, I can only thing of things like what to eat, what not to eat, what I'd like to eat, and all that. When I'm out of it, I think about what I want to DO, what I will DO, you know?

Here's another thought for you, and considering how early it is right now, that's a stretch for me: can you find something like volunteer work, or a class, or something to DO while you're in recovery? Give you something to think about outside all this? Maybe even art therapy? It might help...

Best luck to you, and be well.
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