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Old Oct 02, 2016, 10:10 PM
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Originally Posted by kecanoe View Post
I was wondering how "our" run was today.

I hope this is in line with your topic. Last week I went on a pack trip. Instead of riding my horse, I rode my daughter's. For the last 30 or so years, I have been riding a breed that is short and stocky. Daughter's horse is a Thoroughbred (as in former race horse). He is very like the horse that I had when I was a teen. Same breed, same size, same feel, same color. Very much longer legs, back, neck, stride than my horse. So as I was riding him along the trail, I noticed that Natalie (the teen, who owned the horse) was present. Not taking over, but definitely speaking up. And thinking that she was pretty cool to be able to manage the horse. And I just let myself feel all cool and powerful and in charge and full of myself. But I wasn't dissociated. T says that is a good thing-she described it as feeling the energy of the part without switching. It felt pretty good. I didn't lose any time and Natalie had fun. So maybe what you are experiencing is part of co-consciousness? In other words, what you are feeling sounds like progress. I hope it is!


"Our" run today was sunshiny and breezy. Dragonflies and the smell of the woods. [emoji41]

Thank you!

Your description of you riding the horse reminds me of who I am when I go to my trail. Not sure how to explain it, but I'm free, much like your description of being powerful and in charge.

There was an event that created "the runner" and for a while, I would "go away" when I went on a run. It was an escape. Now it seems that it may be a more "blending" as I've worked through it. Me there, but maybe not 100%. For me, that ok for now. I did lose time before when I ran, but I think it's getting better.

I'm so glad you had the experience you shared. It feels amazing, I would think, to feel both at one time! That sounds like a picture in my mind when the "12 year old, pissed off" part of me took my hand. There was a feeling of "OK" I'm with you.
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