I was also into a lot of dark things. I had a strange side. Also, I was daring, but got scared of really random things. Once, I fixated on water. The next year, I fixated on windows blowing when it would get windy out, and I'd freak out. I did not do well sleeping over others' houses. Up until age 5, I would sleep in my mom's bed until she would carry me to my own bed when I would fall asleep. I also had night terrors that I would remember that were basically hallucinations. Luckily, those did go away.

I remember my first experience with what might have been a depressive episode was around age 9 around the holidays. I remember crying and crying for no reason...it was like the joy was completely sucked out of me, and it lasted for a while. Usually, I had a hypomanic side for sure. I was constantly getting involved with activities and projects. I was super imaginative, active, and creative. However, when I was 14, things changed, and that's when the more serious symptoms started.