I have no sage words of advice, but I can relate. About 5 years ago at dinner, my family was discussing a local abuse case and somehow it came up that at one time they thought something had happened to me when I was little, but dismissed it. Of course I was shocked, but since then have realized that over my life that I have exhibited what one might call "symptoms". I do remember pieces of one evening in question, but nothing bad, or traumatic, just odd.

Do I think it's possible for something to have happened and effect you, but you not remember, yes. Can you ever truly get confirmation?? Possibly. I tend to believe that our minds block things out for a reason...to protect us, and when we are ready or able to deal with it, our minds just might let things come to the surface. Even if you never know if something actually happened, you do know how you feel. Your feelings are real....regardless, and should be addressed. I wish you peace, healing, and send gentle hugs.