I've been so stable for over a year and all the sudden I feel myself starting to slide and I'm really upset about it. Something minor set me off and now that's not even the thing bothering me but I'm still panicky and I feel like everywhere I go there's people looking at me funny and that people are out to get me. I was all hyped up this morning and forgot to take my meds. I have a med reminder on my phone but I was already on my way to an appointment when it went off. I'm getting enough sleep cause I have quetiapine at night but I'm still feeling like things are going south and I'm really upset because usually controlling my sleep will fix it. I had been working out regularly and this morning I could barely pull myself out of bed. I don't feel like doing the simplest of things that normally don't bother me like cleaning up, or grocery shopping, but the more I sit around the worse it gets inside my head. I feel like everything is hopeless. Part of me wants to get out of my house and get a job and be around people and be normal, and then the other part of me keeps remembering what happens when I get in a bad spot like this and why it's not a good idea. Last time I had an episode my husband said he was going to divorce me, so that's another big stress. I don't even know what to say except I just needed to say something, to someone, somewhere. And now I feel stupid for posting this.