Right. Enough is enough. This is getting beyond stupid.

Change of mindset in 3...2...1...

I have had setbacks, I have had problems. I would be stupid to try and pass them off, forget them, or bottle them away. I really need to start to take on the advice I so freely give to others.

Hell, I scored lower in the depression test compared to 6 years ago... I AM getting better.

I need to understand and accept that life is like the ocean, it can be calm, it can be raging, it can be in between. I just need to remember to take breaths before the waves as they roll over my head occasionally.

In two weeks I went from great, to frightened, scared and had quite real SUI thoughts. It has made me appreciate all the people on here so much more.

I need to remind myself that I am not a failure. I am not a looser. I will not be lonely forever. I will not be in constant emotional pain forever. As with all things, THIS WILL PASS.

I need to get myself back on the correct track, back on the correct road.

I'm not "fixed" - I'm a long way away from that, but if i stay on this "oh the world hates me, i'm a failure" mood then i'm never going to get anywhere.

I will still have bad days, I will start to have good ones. I can't rewind the clock and stop

It is so easy to hate yourself, much more difficult to love yourself. - I need to listen to myself !

Blimey that was a long one...