If there is one thing my t does right, it's repairing ruptures. She always stays with me until I'm ok with what happened. We work it out together, doing whatever it takes to make it right. She always take accountability. My t has told me a few times that rupture repair done right will strengthen the relationship. I find that to be true.

I am sorry your t hasn't been able to take accountability for her demented actions and work with you to repair ruptures in a professional, adult-like manner, MonaLisa. I know it's a very difficult path to walk being so attached to a therapist that can't contain her own mental illnesses in the therapy space. I hope you can find what you need in going back to this t.