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Old Oct 03, 2016, 05:44 PM
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Originally Posted by Mysterious153 View Post
I never sleep well the night before a therapy session either and judging from the psychotherapy forum, we are not unique. Getting value out of therapy requires discussing hard things/things you have never or rarely discussed. Inevitably, I end of thinking about how to put it into words prior to a therapy session and thinking about it causes anxiety. And I feel anxious about it a night or two or even for a whole week after but it does seem to help in the long run. So if you can find someone who you can eventually talk to about uncomfortable things, I think it will help you. Good luck today!
He's already brought up medication. I don't want to be on meds ever again. I can't do that. I thought I'd made it clear how I felt about my past experiences but I guess not. I don't want to be reliant on medication to be happy. I don't think meds will help because it's only helping out a "chemical imbalance" which I may or may not have, instead of fixing the core issues behind it.
That's why I don't do therapy. They all want to give me medication and I don't like that. I already have a hard time talking about anything and now I'm suppose to be able to talk about all of my deepest & most painful memories and their affect on me? I just don't want to feel this anymore and talking about it makes it a lot more difficult to shove those feeling aside so that I can function. Talking on here is difficult enough for me, but I do it because it's suppose to help; and it does. At the same time, it re-opens up the wounds.
I hate this.
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