oh gosh, ((((AAAAA))). i do know what you mean. sure enough after i had my stroke, every once in awhile, i will have trouble finding the word i wanted to use in my head. it doesn't happen often. anyway, it can be hard to know where it's really coming from, the depression or the stroke. i sure do hate being a medical mystery, too. could be something to do with that illness that you had when you had a fever for 6 months.