Today, I have been in volunteer work and I've had to confront feelings I didn't know I had. Insecurities that up until now I had never uncovered. I have realised that I have low self esteem related to work as a result of the negative reenforcement at home. I feel like it's a contributing factor to why I have no I idea what to do as a job because I have so many insecurities related to work and if I am actually good enough to have a job. I feel almost blind sided by how insecure I feel about it. The point is if there was an employer asking me why I would be good for this job I'd draw a blank. Also the worst part is when you do have a good quality but then down play it because other people can also communicate well. To be honest I am finding it unhelpful downplaying something I am good at just to make myself feel worse there's no point in doing that because it's not going to lead me anywhere. It will lead me in circles but no where new and exciting and useful for me.