who in the heck makes being a black sheep a bad thing? intolerant and ignorant people who may actually be the "black sheep." it's an illusion pushed on you. be yourself. don't be afraid of not "fitting" in. i know it's hard, especially when you were a kid. there are many who won't judge you in this way. you have us! i lived my whole life being different because i was born deaf. but, i lived and accepted my life with my disability. sure, it's not easy, but i don't have to be someone else in order to please other people, as there's a price with that. you are an ok person. you are a wonderful human being. that's all it matters.