i hve not posted in quite a while, for many reason. I quess cause I just did not know where to begin.. I hvae been under a great deal of stress at school and work, and I think my deperssion is coming back in so many ways I can not even count them
I have not thought bout (cutting) wihch is a good thing. So I wont chat about that in this post...
But I am going to try and talk and update you all on what has been going on.
My grades are not that bad this semster. a A, and a C, but that is higher now that my stupid teacher has my projects graded and uploded how high i still do not know hav enot had a chance to ask him,. For he keeps giving us homework and more homework with finaals coming up..
Plus with my health going down hill, all the time., I have been so sick lately I have not felt like doing much of anything but sleeping and going to school, work and sleeping. I barely have the engery to take care of myself, so I put all of it into taking care of my little girl when she is home.. That is all I can do. Take care of her, and make sure she is well feed and taken care of..
i do not do much if she is at home, I sit and watch Tv or play a toy game with her, or do what ever she wants to do..but other than that not much..

I do not even have the strenght to write peoms anymore. and that used to be a way I delt with my deperssion my mind can not think of anything to write for lack of a better way to say it.
the holidays are going to be really hard on me, cause of my surgery, I will be homebound will not be able to trval hardle anywhere cause I will be in too much pain, or some say that.. I hope I can at least see my other daugtyher next month I am nto sure if I will be able to.. Plus I hve a brithday that makes it even harder another year older and deeper and debt

I know this is a very long update since I have not been on in a long time, but I know I need to vent somewhere or I am giong to break down and cry my eyes out and that will not be good while I am at work..