Werent you always negative and kinda yelling at her anyway? So what exactly do you miss? The opportunity to yell at her? Thats how my mother wanted to connect with me, thru pain, but honestly i just couldnt take it anymore. Its probably not just your t you do that with - the closer you are, maybe the more "honest" you are? But those close to you deserve politeness the most, not strangers. Others may disagree with me, but hey walk a mile in my shoes.