Hello Angel -- Welcome to the forums. This is a good place to vent -- to get some perspectives additional to your own.

I am sorry that you are experiencing these problems. Have you tried al-anon? In the end, the only person's behaviors we can change are our own. The alcoholic has to reach that bottom place where he or she wants to change (I have been in recovery for 16 years) -- no one can "make" him. Even if a judge or treatment facility "makes" the person give up drink, the cure is unlikely to be permanent until the drinker wants to be free of booze.

Al-anon can help you to deal more effectively with your feelings about the situation and to find comfort with others who understad what you are going through.

I hope you will give up passing knives or other weapons around in a situation where both his and your emotions are volatile. This sounds dangerous to a wimp like me.

Keep us posted on how things are going. Hope things get better soon.