I am so so upset with T right now but feel I am probably just being ungrateful and demanding and therefore wanted to get some input.

I posted last week about how amazing T was at being there for me in a crisis when my husband called her. She was indeed amazing. I spoke to her for an hour and then an hour the next day and promptly transferred payment for 2 sessions into her account without her having to ask me. At the end of the call she said she was going away for the weekend and that she might be at the theatre but she would call me back if I texted her, not to suffer but to get in touch by phone, text or email etc. I felt reassured that she was there for me. That was Thursday. So Friday morning I sent her an email expressing alot of difficult feelings and frustration that I was having as I haven't been well at all mentally. T replied to say thanks so much for sending the email, that she couldn't promise to reply before she left for the weekend but she would get back to me. Then Saturday she emailed and said she hoped I was okay and that it wouldn't be until Monday that she had the time to sit down and repsond to my email in the way that she wanted to and the time that my email deserved. I thought, ok, I can deal with that.

All day Monday I was anxiously waiting...at 8.00 in the evening she sent a mail to ask how I was and say that she had only just got back but hadn't forgotten about my email and would respond. I replied that I was still very up and down but ok at the moment.

So I thought I guess it will now be Tuesday that T responds as it was already evening...so today (Tuesday) again I have waited all day, it's now 9.30 in the evening and still nothing...

I am feeling SO disappointed and let down. I don't understand, I really don't. She knew I had a crisis just ONE week ago, she read my desperate and frustrated email and kept saying she would reply and now I'm thinking there really is no point. The moment has been and gone now as my moods and feelings change so much (which T knows very well). I don't get it. What am I missing here? If she said she would reply Monday and was apologetic about me having to wait that long, why am I still waiting? I didn't ask her to tell me about her private life and weekend plans, she volunteered that but she didn't say she was not able to reply today and I would have to wait until Wednesday. I am so wound up and frustrated that I feel I will be totally unable to read any mail that she now sends. I have lost trust in her again and these loose boundaries are really not doing me any good at all! Am I just being spoilt and childish?? Please be honest and tell me if I am expecting too much. Thanks.