I totally get that feeling of loss and it is so weird and strange because for so long I wanted what I have now, and what I have now is so amazing and healing and magical almost but there is still a loss, a loss of the feelings of desire and searching. Maybe that is why I feel kind of empty, even though I think my heart should be warm and full because I feel that my needs are being met, that I am being accepted and embraced, physically, psychologically and emotionalky. I hope in time that I can feel that but for now I m struggling with it. Thanks for making me think about this.