Thanks everybody for taking some time to answer my post. It's nice to get thoughtful and caring opinions instead of someone saying, " just shoot yourself and the problem is solved instanly !" I'm just so so sorry that I hurt this women like that and made her cry and everything. I'm starting to wonder who I hurt more, the women, my girlfriend or myself ? My girlfriend is just so confused ?????? Yes, she talks to me but she just keeps asking, " why ?" Fantasy land doesn't seem so fantastic after all. And about my girl not being very attractive. I don't think that has anything to do with loving someone. I mean some people love their dogs but their not attractive to them. I hope.
Thanks again everyone I feel .001% better.