Dear Candy -- I think Myzen may be onto something here. Even though you discount the job as a "cause," it has been a really bad thing for you -- perhaps a trigger as Myzen says -- perhaps worth considering in or out of group -- just a thought. I know I am very affected by my work environment -- and not just the outward things that are said or done -- I am very affected once a bad energy sets in -- such as just before a management takeover or administrative change -- these energy patterns can really affect those of us who are sensitive -- just a thought