So dissociative...it's getting worse. Losing hrs and think soon days...an weeks into months...no end in sight...try to anchor to present, try to tell self adult now, nothing. Buy house and try to work, and meet prospect friend for coffee, get stood up by another, and at time T rejected request for hug, and arguing with ex, all happen at once and suddenly can't stay focused for a moment. Dissociative, so tiring. Exhausted. Not sure what will help get me out of here...feel at times parts of my mind are more important than me.
Feeling unreal at times...feel like a robot and being told what to do.
Not sure I will return ...it could be my last ....been away for months before...just not a good time with closing on house that is triggering stuff