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Originally Posted by objectclient
...it's making me feel like doing SH  
Ok, so everyone here probably knows I am struggling with obsessing over ex T. I want to stop googling and checking her FB, I really do. It's getting out of hand and having a really bad effect on my mental health. It's making me feel on edge wondering what next piece of unwanted info I am about to learn, it's taking up time and brain space when I could be doing and thinking of something else, it's stopping me moving on with my life and most of all, I HATE MYSELF FOR IT!  After each time I check up on T, I am wrecked with guilt and feel like I need to SH as some kind of cleansing/punishing ritual. It's like binge eating and then feeling disgusted with yourself so you force yourself to be sick to put things right. I have managed to refrain so far but I really need to stop googling and would really appreciate some advise on breaking this habit, thanks. |
I really relate to what you're saying. I'm in the same situation after finding my T's wife's Facebook page which includes videos of him that are open to the public. We have SIX mutual friends which gives me even more access to her posts. I don't think I'll ever be able to tell T about it and I feel like a scumbag about it. I've told him some seriously personal things and I don't think I can ever tell him this. Just wanted you to know you're not alone in thins.