I talked to my sister. I think we got off on the wrong foot the last time I tried talking to her. I think I misjudged her. Maybe there is hope for a relationship after all? Its kind of an odd situation because she is quite a bit older than me (first marriage for my father) and we really didn't grow up together.

I don't think she really "got it" about what all I have been through with bipolar disorder and the other various illnesses that I have to deal with. I tried my best to explain what a manic episode is like and I think she is starting to get it.

Maybe she was having a hard time understanding me because she's never seen me manic? For me the mania didn't happen till I was in my 30s and I wasn't around her, so she probably cant picture me that way. Told her about the hospital stay for the pancreatitis and the rest of the crap going wrong with me.

We talked a long time about God, which is something I have been having a hard time with. She told me she loved me, which I didn't expect. She also told me I could call anytime even at night if I need to. I probably wont call her if I go manic again because I seriously don't think she's ready to see something like that.

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I also wanted to ask her what did our father die from. My father and I did not get along. Its a long story but he was really abusive and I cut him out of my life because I could not take it anymore. She told me what he died from so now I know incase it can be passed down and will involve my health.