I express a lot of emotion--crying through snot and spit bubbles, anger that has ended in having to use an ice pack, art, sculpture, writing, excessive talking. It's humiliating that I am like this. I was sobbing even when we had an outside session in a park recently. My therapist doesn't really say much when it's bad. I'm just another appointment in the day. I think it gets old to her, though she hasn't said. The time in the park, she said no one would think anything of my sobbing, that it was just a normal thing.

I don't see any value at all in getting emotional. If I could stop it, and be more like how you describe, I would do that in a heartbeat.

eta: I just remembered that I do go the other way some times and shut down, like yesterday, I just had nothing else to say and left about a half hour early.