I get your frustration. My T nailed me with BP1 & Psychosis within the first hour of meeting me. He wasn't the first one (actually the 4th), but he didn't know that and did not have access to my previous T's records. He also said I should be on meds and told me to go see the pdoc. The second meeting we had he started off by saying why didn't you go see the pdoc, and spent 10 minutes pushing meds. Like you I have a LOT of distrust in mental health providers, and they didn't help that by being so fast to call a dx and push drugs.