Depends on the lens one views it through.
T has a book on her shelve entitled "on needing people and is roots in early childhood ". Everytime I've looked at that title over the years, I've laughed. T will ask "tell me what's funny?". I say "the whole idea of needing people.
It was only last session when I get again looked at it and laughed that T said, "you've said you need ****(my husband)? I said, yeah, that's true. But when I think of other people, eg, a girl I grew up with abd basically took me prisoner in infant sch, and a woman in sorta of friendly with up the road from me, they sort of make me cringe.
T said, yes, but they're not the people you need?
I had to think, and realised I cast the wrong people when I read that book title. Seeing that, I finally understood that needing isn't weak, that if we have the right people in our life's - like I have my husband - it makes sense. I guess therapy for attachment issues is like that. If we just think or read about it and replay earlier negative experinces, then it doesn't feel possible. But given the right T then it makes sense and works.
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