My case manager dismissed me again when. I brought up the fact I probably need another neuro-psych exam done, to see if I have autism or not, and she flat out said I don't have it. Where as my therapist thinks I might, she said it makes more sense than borderline personality disorder, (no offence to anyone with BPD). Idk I'll probably stay fixated.on this for a few weeks then drop it again (unless I actually do find someplace that does testing and make an appointment, or find my records in the next few weeks). Then I get told by a therapist (not my therapist, but I know him since he use to be my case manager) to just "push through" my anxiety, wtf dude, dismissed again, and I was in an anxiety attack and had to run out of group. What is with people dismissing or discouraging me.today? It's.getting pretty old pretty fast, and now.I. have to write a "DEAR MAN" letter (for anyone fimiliar with DBT, you'll know what that is), to my current case manager on how I.feel about her dismissing me today. F*** I just want to let it go at this point, but now I got homework on it.

Other than that just laying down with my cat, re-charging my self after being drained by the time I got home. I just feel so overwhelmed today, and my anxiety is really high, and I gotta analyze that too, and don't want to go into much detail with the analysis, since my daydreams can trigger it, and that is my private world that no one is allowed into. F***

How's everyone else doing today?

Hugs to anyone that needs them.