Sometimes I can be so happy. I mean things are so funny and I can go through the day just fine. Other days I can just die, I cant control my crying, I feel worthless and not deserving of the love that my husband shows me. Those are the days I sit on the computer and I pray someone will talk. My husband works 9 to 5:30pm and from that time I am alone. The times when I just get out of the hospital are the worse. I am way more emotionally and I feel like some people just give up on me. I know that if I talk to my husband he tries his best to make this go away, he tries to make me stop the crying and it works sometimes. I am coping with my bi polar all on my own financially. I don't have a doctor or therapist there to help and I think I just need someone to be there that knows what if feels like to be falling apart!