((((gentlelamb)))) 64 is young. (I am 61.) I understand your current frustration, but consider the good things that might happen in the future. You might be free to get help and get out.

Maybe other folks here can offer some suggestions, if you would like. Meanwhile, can you escape in other ways--such as coming here for games, activities, talk, etc.?

Feel free to vent, of course. We care.