The love you feel for her is not at all inappropriate. It's perfectly okay to have loving feelings. It's perfectly okay to tell her that you have loving feelings for her and to tell her that you have a wish for her to be a part of your life. You know already that your wish can't be a reality, not because your feelings are inappropriate or wrong in any way, but because the therapeutic relationship must remain therapeutic for it to be truly helpful. But having the wish is important to you and so it's important for her to know.
I love my T and daydream about her all the time. She knows I have a wish for her to 'mother' me. It's okay and I'd venture a guess that I'm not the first or last who will feel that way about her. I think that since she knows, she is available to me in ways that are meaningful to me in a therapeutic way, without crossing any boundaries. She knows just how to do that.
I think if you decide to share with her about these very deep and meaningful feelings you have, it would be so special to her to hear you say it in your own voice and with words that are your own. Express from your heart and share with her the wonderful loving feelings you hold for her.
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