I feel a lot of things in my sessions. Fear and shame a lot, because those are my issues. They cause me to withdraw and become unable to think or speak like I would like to. Sometimes T notices a change and asks me what I'm feeling, which produces different brilliant responses like "I don't know" or just a head shake. What I often want to respond to that with is "Why?", "Why are you asking?" ("What's your motive?", "Am I safe!"), "How does my answer affect what comes next?" or "What des it seem like to you?". All deflective, all non-answers, which make me made at myself then. Which takes right back to shame and fear, a familiar place