I have heard a lot of you speak about feeling love for your Ts.

How do you know if you love your T?

I am so busy hating him, being ridiculously attached to him, needing him more than oxygen, being jealous, being vulnerable, acting out, wanting to be a child with him, thinking of him in an erotic sense-- how would I uncover love? It doesn't seem as though it could exist in the midst of all that. Or if it does, it does not appear that I could find it.