I'm getting really fed up with feeling so useless all the time. I wonder why I even bother? I feel like there's no point in trying.....it's not like it makes a difference anyway. I went from being the smart one that knew at the very least I had good book skills, to now feeling stupid and pointless all the time. My head just won't do what I want it to. I think 8,000 things at once and it all gets jumbled up in my brain and ends up making me sound like a complete fool. My only friend no longer trusts me to be able to do much of anything, but I don't really trust me either. I can't blame her. Half the time I can't' even say a full sentence correctly, since by the time I'm saying it my head has moved on to a different topic. I get too anxious to do anything else that I should be able to do. I don't see how I have any worth at the moment. I'm not contributing anything to the world, just existing day by day without any purpose.