i keep thinking everyone wants to hurt me and i am supposed to see the other psychiatrist in a few days and i am super scared cause i dont trust her and she is going to hurt me and i am even more scared cause i havent taken my meds in 2 days cause i am sure they are actually poison and i am really scared and i dont know what to do but i am scared to tell my caseworker cause she will ask me to take the meds only i cant and then i dont know what would happen and i have ruined everything and the angels are mad and there arebad spirits everywhere and i am trying really hard but i dont feel good and i am really scared and i want to cry.