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Originally Posted by bluebicycle
Does anyone else find work triggering? (Or if you're on disability, *did* you find work triggering?)
My boss is a total asshole and says asshole things to me quite often. He says asshole things to other people too, so it's not just me. I think that's just his nature.
One thing he recently said to me was, "Your performance fluctuates. That's not okay." Since I'm rapid cycling, of course my performance constantly fluctuates! But the thing is, I'm still one of the top employees in my tier despite fluctuations in my performance. (i.e., he's b#tching about nothing.) So despite my high achievements, he said I get no bonus, raise, or promotion because of the fluctuation in performance.
That sort of stuff triggers me because it makes me so mad. The other things that triggers me are big, impending deadlines. Most people on my team don't have their sh#t together, so everything is done at the last minute and it's super stressful for me because I'm waiting on them to do their parts! Talk about getting the short end of the stick...
But no, I have not told him about my BP. I think he's sort of noticed something is going on, though.
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My job was like that but worse. I did start getting behind in work. I would be at work working on one thing then I would put it down and work on something else. My voicemail was full. My email was full. I had emails from my sup saying my reports were wrong. He had attached them for me to re-do. I thought I had ADD. I had been working there for almost four years. I was the top leader of the dept and went to the bottom. I remember being called into a meeting to be put on probation. I broke down crying and told them something was wrong with me and I did not know what it was. They told me to take a day or so off work. I went to my primary and was wrongly diagnosed. They gave me an antidepressant. My behavior got worse...I was snapping at people, not sleeping, spending money, driving crazy, having sex with my frnd like it was going out of style....I was manic at this point. I ended up getting fired. I received a second diagnosis and learned I was bipolar 1 and later schizoaffective. This was my last job. I now get disability