Wow I looked and both of my meds cause memory loss. Both the tegretol and the Geodon do. So I guess that is probably what's going on. I am going to complain to my pdoc about this. I am sick to death of side effects of medications messing me up in one way or another. It could be partly menopause as well.

It still don't explain the timeline thing I have going on. mindwrench you mentioned disassociation. I did have one really strange "event" of I don't know what it really was. It was right after my pdoc put me on Geodon. It was a feeling like I woke up and had been at some different level of consciousness for a long time. It caused a really bad panic attack. I did tell my pdoc about it but he did not seem concerned.

I am going to tell him about all of this and see what he says. I wonder if it has something to do with the loxapine I was on. I was on that for a long time. Long enough that my pdoc wanted to take me off of it for fear of extrapyramidal side effects. Maybe that stuff was messing me up and I didn't know it?

All I know is this all made me pretty upset that I could not remember things from my own children's childhood. My husband, although I love him dearly, does not understand a lot of what goes on with me. He always wants to think positive about my health and MI and I don't think he really sees things the way they really are. I don't think he wants to accept that there's something wrong or out of the norm. I think its how he copes with the constant barrage of dr appointments and medical stuff I have to go to.