It will be more than 3 weeks when I see my T. I emailed twice and so did she. I'm still feeling weak and tired from my surgery. Maybe that's why I haven't missed her. I'm just trying to recuperate. I want to talk with her about my health concerns. My surgery was elective; I'm not sick, but have some new issues to deal with now. So I want to use my T the way I'm supposed to, not because I'm obsessed with her anymore.

I think my changed feelings about her will last. I feel like my attachment issues have shifted for the better, so there's hope for those who are in similar situations. My T has been here for me through my obsession for her, my wanting to be part of her family, and my attraction to her. She never sent me away, rejected me, or made me feel I was too much for her to handle. She let me love her. So I think she is one of the competent Ts! They DO exist. She helped me work through my attachment issues over and over without judging me. She made mistakes, yes, and I will probably slip back, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. My T cares about me and all of her clients. She is definitely NOT acting.