Hello, Immer Allein. Have you read Dr. Frankl's book, Man's Search for Meaning? If not, the survivor of Auschwitz concentration camp may inspire you. Particularly note:

But let me make it perfectly clear that in no way is suffering necessary to find meaning. I only insist that meaning is possible even in spite of suffering--provided, certainly, that the suffering is unavoidable. If it were avoidable, however, the meaningful thing to do would be to remove its cause, be it psychological, biological or political...

I wish you well.