A few months ago I was a little bit of a mess - every couple of weeks I would crash into a terrible depression (maybe mixed state) w/ SI and major urges to SH, angry outbursts, distorted thinking etc. I also had really bad anxiety/panic. Two things have happened since then: 1. I decreased zoloft from 50 mg to 25 mg and I went on a month-long backpacking trip (walked over 400 miles!). Sine returning (about 1 month ago) I have had zero depression, and almost 0 anxiety. There was one day I thought I maybe I was experiencing hypomania - tons of ideas/plans, couldn't fall sleep/woke up really early, random urge to do drugs and other risky/impulsive things, but then it just went away.

I've always doubted my diagnosis. But now I'm really really doubting it. Do you think it's possible for BP to just sort of...go away? (I am not, and have never been on a mood stabilizer). I know I should probably just be thankful and stop analyzing everything, but am having a hard time trusting this newfound stability...