Hello. I am new to posting on this forum, although I have been reading for quite some time. I have been struggling with GAD, MDD, and now BP 2. I was misdiagnosed for years.

My soon to be former Pdoc had prescribed Cymbalta and then ADDED Zoloft, which made me very sick. I am actually lucky that it didn't kill me. I also take Lamotrigine 250.

As a favor to a friend, a prestigious PDOC did a second opinion and said I was BP 2 in July. He recommended a PDOC that he trusts for my care, and I will finally have my first appt with her next week (I've had to wait 3 months).

I have successfully weaned off the Cymbalta, and have cut back on Zoloft since it is throwing me into hypo mania. I am irritable, on the verge of crying all the time, and very discouraged. That's coming off of what I believe was hypo - not sleeping, extra energy, grandiose plans and beliefs.

My misdiagnosed condition has caused the havoc many of you can relate to - job loss, unemployment, financial issues. I am working a job way below my capabilities for slave wages because it's about what I can handle right now, it pays the basics, and I have insurance. I have plans to find a new, better paying job, but it's been suggested to me that I wait until I get on some correct meds to work that out, or I'll fail.

This morning, I got a call from the new PDOCs office telling me that they made a mistake when they booked my appt in July, and that dr. is not in my insurance plan after all. An initial visit will be $300, all OOP and due at the time of service, then subsequent visits will be $100. They wanted to know if I still want to keep the appt, and advised that this dr. has now closed her practice to new patients.

Her initial fee is half of my bi-weekly take home pay, and after I pay my basic bills, I actually only have $100 left for the month for meds, food, gas, and any other stuff that hits. I cannot afford this doc, but I have no good info any others. Regardless, I would have to wait for an appt with any other if i can manage to find one in network. In the meantime, I am hanging on by a thread, and have had this appt date as my goal to muddle through in the meantime. I am complete survival mode right now.

Sorry to vent as someone knew to this board. I am scared, angry, frustrated, sad, isolative, and feeling alone, nearly desperate. It doesn't feel like this will ever end or improve. Does it get better?