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Can you think of the last time you felt really really connected to him? What was the session like? What were you two talking about? Can you recreate that climate somehow? Can you "stage" the environment on SAturday? Does he need to wear his weird shirt? His T-shirt?

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The most connected I ever felt to him was in the couch-session. To this day, I maintain that it was more traumatic for him than it was for me. He pretty much agrees. But anyway, the connectedness came after I got up from the couch and sat on the chair again. I felt so safe, so taken care of. Like he was holding me. I told him this a couple of weeks ago. He said, "We calmed each other down."

Do I go back on the couch?

I don't know. Things are complicated.