Hello AHeartOfRuby: I'm sorry you are struggling with this phobia. There is a type of therapy, referred to as "Exposure Therapy" that is typically used to treat this type of condition. (Perhaps I've mentioned this to you in another post? I know I refer people to it often.) It is important, though, to find a therapist who has experience with it. California therapist, Kat Morton, has a video on her YouTube channel regarding Exposure Therapy. Here is a link to it: